I was surprised to see that my wife had a psudonyme so readily at hand. Why have I never met this Elisabeth? I guess that honesty does require a bit of anonimity so what should I use? I am torn between something simple like Sam which besides being short is also a bit gender innocuous (we can explore why that appeals to me later) or should I go with something odd, macho and cool, Naric? This indecision is one of my major flaws. I often flounder in my head about making decisions, I am reluctant to devote myself to a single path. I know some of you are now thinking, “Ah I get it now”. That would be the easy answer, a guy unwilling to commit. Yet that is not the whole story. Actually I commit to stuff all the time. Besides the fact that I actually got married 10 years ago, I have also gone back to school, moved up in my field, bought a house, etc. I do spend quite a bit of time thinking and planning but this seems to keep me from merely being impulsive.
The fact is I actually do calculate the distance I can travel after the empty signal comes up. I look at our site name as a metaphor for the state of our marriage. We are still moving forward. We know if we keep going with out a change we will end up stranded. We are in the car together, with kids I might add. And we are not sure what is going to happen next. I must say I am not afraid but I am a bit annoyed that I cannot calculate what comes next.